Wondering ...Thinking....

Each time I online, I keep on looking for familiar friends that I used to chat with or even someone that I think of. Sometimes, I end up disappointed as I didn't get to chat with them or even that person. Maybe as we become closer we tend to feel drift away by distance. We have our own path, own destiny to go as we grew apart. Things can't stay the same all the time. I understand it. But sometimes deep inside I feel alone. There more I think, the more I am not sure whether I should follow my own desire or others. Should I let go? My heart seem depart as I can't decide. Many possibilities have been consider and neither is clear. I know that I don't really like the dull life like now. What I wan is a life full of enjoyment after a tiring work. Not the same old thing as work sleep work sleep and stay at home in the weekend. It isn't what I want. But, will I get to do that?

I am not a good girl as I seem. I tend to escape from my real life and wanting for adventure of my own. Time seem fly so fast that I feel that I shouldn't wait longer.